I miss listening.
I miss listening to him speak. I miss listening to him speak his language fluently. He spoke in a way that made me feel proud. He spoke about his goals, his ambitions, and dreams. It was nice listening to someone who was passionate about something other than making money. I don’t know why I feel like this today.
I know this feeling will pass. This hasn’t happened in awhile. Usually I’m okay. I hope that wherever he is, whatever he’s doing, he knows that I always have him in my prayers.
I admit, I am still hung up over my ex but this just makes it much easier to forget and move on.
Still, a year after all the bullshit I have been through, I am still finding out things that are simply mind blowing. I feel hurt and betrayed all over again and my mind and heart are racing just thinking about it. This guy ripped every ounce of happiness I had, out of me. My spirit has gone away from me. I sit here, longing to be that girl I once was. To be happy and at peace with myself.
Why are you still “stalking” him? Why do you even care what he does? Why waste all this time on him?
I get asked that all the time. Simply put: I loved him with every ounce of my being. I planned my future with him. I made myself believe that he loved me too…but I guess, up to a certain point, he stopped.
It was easy for him to leave me, is all I can think about. My love meant nothing.
I lose sleep over this. I cry over this…because I loved this guy so much.
Right now, I just take life one day at a time.The future that I had dreamt about, gone. A family that we envisioned, gone.
I would never wish this type of hurt upon my worse enemy.
I am thankful to have had this experience, though I wish it would have ended differently. Some days I just wish that I ignored that MySpace message. LOL!
I have a long journey ahead of me and I know this. I still, will not give up on the hope that I will, one day, be happy again. To whom that are reading this, I’ll be sure to let you know when that day comes. To him: “Thanks…”
November is Native American Heritage Month
Indian Creation Story
The Creator first made woman.
But she became lonely.
So she asked The Creator to for a companion.
The Creator obliged her.
He cut off a part of her butt and made man.
That is why native women have flat butts and native men are butt heads.
Because it’s worth re-reblogging. LOLOLOLOL good morning, guys.
Submission: Reality Stars and The “Tribal Look”
She looks like an idiot.
Once again a Kardashian sister makes a fool of herself and has managed to completely offend people while doing so. Khloe posted this photograph on her twitter while asking the question, “what do you guys think of my tribal look??” And honestly she should know better considering her own people have been marginalized and persecuted for centuries as well. Ugh, when will people learn?